Would you do it?

I hesitate to write this post.  I’m not normally so open about my private life, but here goes…

What if, long ago, there were certain circumstances responsible for the separation of two young lovers that neither could control or wanted to happen?  And what if, they now happened to find themselves presented with a timely opportunity, a window, to start over and pick up where they left off…. Thirty years ago.  But this time, there were no obstacles preventing their union?

What if YOU could get a second chance with your first love, the one you’ve always had a deep, unexplainable and undeniable connection with throughout your lifetime?  The one you’ve never forgotten about, even though you’ve been miles apart and mostly out of touch with for decades….

Would you take that second chance if you could?  Would you jump for it with a blind leap of pure faith… not knowing how the story might unfold?

Would you do it?

Would it be considered “irrational” to arrange for someone you’ve only seen once in the past 30 years come to live with you, to start a new life together? Someone who would be traveling a distance of over 1100 miles and giving up their current life, to show up on your doorstep to start a new life – just like that.  Maybe it’s completely insane? I don’t know.  I’m only asking for a friend…  No I’m not.  I’m totally lying.  I’m asking for me.  Even though I’ve already made a concrete decision on the matter.

I HAVE CHOSEN to take that leap of faith… Have I lost my mind?  Absolutely. Or…

It might turn out be the best thing ever.

18 days…

In eighteen days he’ll pull into my driveway, with his dog and his belongings.  Probably exhausted, I imagine, from driving such a distance – and maybe also questioning his own sanity.  Rightfully so.  He’ll be here and ready to start our new life… And then a new chapter will begin to unfold, for better or decidedly worse.

That’s the thing about life. Sometimes you have to face your fears and take big leaps in order to be open to the possibility of receiving big rewards. Or, you can sit back and play it safe. Take no chances. Nothing changes. No rewards.

So now I find myself here, standing on that ledge, waiting anxiously to take a leap into the unknown.  Am I afraid?  Yes. Hell yes.  But at the same time so very, very  excited.

And I must admit, it will be absolutely amusing watching the city boy morph into the “farm boy”.

Would you do it? ~A